Bronchitis

I have never had any real bad illnesses, but I had the worst cough this past week. Turns out I have bronchitis. How the fuck did i get Bronchitis? For the next 10 days Antibiotics have to be by new best friends.

Never Solid

I was your favorite cantante
but I never hit that note
You were my favorite fish
but I always knew there
were more in the sea.
As we grow and trip
the cracks in our life become bigger
and even deeper marked.
You have doubt in your mind
I have certainty in my heart.
Summer will come, winter will end.
The truth will be seen in the end
The world will keep on turning
people will keep on moving
We will always be changing.

Down hill

As i ran down a hill the other day, I thought "I like going down hill, going down hill is good thing in fact its a great thing." I always hear people say its all down hill from here and they refer to something bad happening. I think people should say its all up hill from here, because going up hill is hard and unpleasant. Going down hill is easy and awesome. So have a happy down hill day.

Question

Who am I?

Search.

You might already have what im searching for, but I wouldn't want to stop this search for anything, im having the time of my life.

The people we know

Friends are a form of comfort, laughter , happiness, support and so much more. So is encouraging them to do irresponsible yet unexplainable fun things wrong? Someone was telling me that I should be a better friend by making sure my friends don't do things they'll regret, I think people are going to do whatever they want. Why not just support our friends in whatever they may want to do, whether its streaking through the beach, showing your ass at a party or just getting really fucked up because its Friday night. I make an ass of my self all the time and usually I don't need any encouragement. And if someone does do something embarrassing you can always blame it on the alcohol.

Dent

Like the waves you drift
never thought it would be so swift
I don't see love in your eyes
I see comfort
but what would I know?
I just follow the sky's
through aging minds you were my vise
im not to wise but no one really is
drumers and hummers came and went
but only now is there a dent
Charls Fent almost had a chance
But he never learned your dance
I took you to the dance
but now there is a dent.
Yeah there is a dent.

Fan of Life

Yesterday I heard someone say "Damm tomorrows already Sunday!" then I thought, "Damm tomorrow is already Sunday", but then I thought wait today is still Saturday why am I worrying. Some times we let ourselves be taken by other peoples the cup is half full mentality. I try to always be optimistic. The leaves may change colors and people may fade away but the journey goes on. I choose to stay a fan of life, Whatever it may hold.

My Aunt Teresita

While talking to my aunt that I hadn't seen in four years, I felt a closeness that you can only really feel when there is a connection. She is my family my blood. She told me that we get our characteristics from the people that we are around, whether we like it or not. Sometimes I know I do things or think in the way that my dad thinks, even though we sometimes bump heads or argue I know the things I take away from my dad are traits that make me a better person. My aunt also talked about how people try to label you. I thought about when people tell me Im a stubern person, and then I believe it, and right then and there I am labeled! But things like that don't have to define you, maybe I am stubern in that moment but usually its for a reason, and that certainly doesn't mean thats who I am. What Im trying to say is that you have to be happy with the person you are inside, then nothing else matters.

Youth

While I remain unfulfilled, I have to admit its getting better. Im 18 going on 19, its my time to experiment and be radical. I will express my self and even if I seem unorthodox to some, my behavior is my own and no one else's. Today my dad told me to enjoy my youth, I replied I am.

Tree

Im not sure where you came from
I usually see you in the house with the gnome
You always seem to make me feel right at home
I once heard you made some one foam, at the mouth
And you know Im alway down south
But up north is where i want to be
Not up in humble though
more like the city of angels
No not here with the people with the kanckles
I hate spending cash but they love getting that hash
my friend once made tea but i didn't get any
I met you at 15
before i had never really seen
you make me see shapes and help me fly
I loose myself in the maze you provide
its kinda like a ride
I wonder how you can make my world so much rounder
There is so much out there
It doesn't even matter
You make me feel good like all my fixes do
I just hope some day you'll help me find her.
this, this, is to be enjoyed with another.

State of Mind.

Today is Friday the 13th, it couldn't have been a better day. Nothing special happened but everything looked up. I didn't let anything bother me, there was nothing to bother me. I was in a state of mind where everything was going they way it was suppose to. Crying kids at the store didn't annoy me, my foot that has a pain that just doesn't go away didn't affect me, The rain getting me wet was all good. Im not sure what happened to me but I like it. Welcome to my fabulous life, a state of mind.

black & white

Life has more than one dimension. Sometimes I feel I see things in black and white. My teacher is either smart or dumb, my friends are cool or lame, im happy or upset. I need to get out of the bubble called life in San Ysidro, nothing mush changes here. I have a shell around me, I have for the past 18 years. Some animals shed their shells and the time is coming for me to shed mine. Its hard to make the best of things when there are obstacles always in my way. I think a road trip will show me change of scenery and a more optimistic outlook.

Wisdom Teeth

Im not sure why they call them wisdom teeth I don't feel any wiser, but mine started to show a few weeks ago. So I had t get them removed. I was a little anxious about it at first. But it didn't hurt at all I only had to take the pain pills once right after I got home from the dentist. The only thing that is bothering me about this little procedure is that it has made my face look ridiculous. One side of my face is swollen beyond belief making me look a little weird, well probably more than a little weird. Some say im a monster at the moment but its okay to be a monster every once in a while.

Spring.

The flowers on the freeway started to bloom today. So I guess even though the groundhog decided we would have six more weeks of winter last Monday, spring has arrived. Im still not sure if I welcome it with open arms we barely had a winter here in San Diego.

A Face Like No Other

Oval monkeys run around
You think that your a clown
but the circus isn't in town
Why me?
Oval monkeys run around
You see me,
Suddenly im a hound
Fuck I need to get free
Oval monkeys run around
There suddenly is a sound
Don't worry its just me
Oval monkeys run around
Oh! she sure knows how
Yeah she sure knows how.
Yeah she sure knows how.
Oval monkeys run around
Smile because the camera is rolling
Shit im still drooling
But it keeps on rolling
It will always keep on rolling.

Nap Time

Im thinking its bad when I wake up in the morning and cant wait to get home from school to go back to sleep.

Deleted

I have a myspace like im sure you do too. Its a cool place to be when your bored and what not. But today mypsace upset me kind of. Well friends sometimes delete you or add you, right? And its okay , But it hella sucks when you know who deleted you and when you thought you were cool with this person. I'm sure its happened to everyone. So if you do delete, I say do it discreetly at least. Not right after the person your deleting just commented you. Thats cold. Till next time friends, Ill be seeing you.

fumari vs. Cafe Lulu

Im sure there are a lot of hookah bars in Down Town San Diego, But there are two very close to each other right by Horton Plasa Mall. The first one I went to in down town was Fumari which is located on 3rd street. I thought it was great it, it has a great atmosphere and not to crowded during the evening . But I was eager to try the other place because i had passed by it a few times and wanted to see what it was all about. So a few days ago i went with a couple of friends to Cafe Lu Lu located on F St. I quickly found out that it wasn't to organized at all, we waited for service which never came and when it was time to leave it was a hassle to get our check. Maybe it was the time that we went but I really don't think ill be going back to cafe lulu, ill stick to what has been good to me Fumari. Try it for yourself I think you'll agree.

Don't be a jerk off

I don't know if its just me but when I walk into a waiting room or a crowded room I usually try to find a seat where I can be away from people or at least not quite next to them. So I found it odd today when I was waiting to get some blood work done, that an Asian man sat right next to me when there was plenty of empty seats all around me. He walked over and it seemed like he thought about it or hesitated at first and sat one seat over, but then he walked away and came back and sat right next to me and started reading his news paper. I thought to my self "thats weird" and so I ask you do you sit right next to people when there are empty seats all around ? A few minutes later I got called in to get my blood work done and the guy did to. The people sticking me with needles were all Asian, and as I soon found out all spoke the same language. They chated away laphed told stories and what not, well at least thats what I imagined. I couldn't help but to feel out of place. Out of the loop of things. So i tell you people out there don't sit next to people you don't know when there are empty seats all around. People need their personal space, and if your speak English why speak anything else here, it makes people think your talking about them. Don't be a jerk off. Thank you.

Wake Up Call

Wake up call. News flash for Orland, school just got hard! I guess I should have known it was coming the day that coasting through classes with minimal effort would come and ruin my life. I actually expected it on the first day of college back in august but nothing really changed, I passed my classes all first semester by going to class and not much else, a little studying here and there, but pretty much just staring at a teacher talk. Well my first month of second semester with my two new classes not so good. And I even made note cards, time to buckle down. At school some people blamed the teacher for not preparing us enough but its really all on us. I should have studied more and i will... next time. Some girl even cried it was a little sad and funny at the same time. Seeing as she is to old for that and also because the teacher made a joke about waiting to get out of class to cry after the final. The girl actually took it to heart. But this is just a bump in the road, and i needed it. I will learn from this experience and make a change. But know its the weekend, the first weekend in a while that I can actually enjoy. So lets go out, i need a fix.

An Eagle

These past weeks i have been more tired than usual. I have been taking naps which i never do and also iv been having the weirdest dreams. At first i thought i was getting old, and my sanity was leaving me, but its really just school. Every class keeps getting harder an harder. So its putting a damper on my life by getting me stressed out, I try to be cool and chill but im usually always worried about whats next, whats going to happen I think I need to just stop thinking. Get a clue and chill out. Part of my worrying is that i always wait until the last minute to do things. I could be brushing up on some Bio 130 but instead im writing a blog that nobody reads. See I don't get motivated to do things until the pressure is on. Im really no different than most under stimulated teenagers in America, we procrastinate. There is always something better to do and something to get pushed back to the next week, day, hour. I think if i liked what i was going to study i would look forward to learning but sadly my case is different, I am getting a career that i know could give me a good life but I want to be doing something else. I wish I was an eagle, well an eagle that could turn into a human after going wherever it wished. then i could be.

Last Thursday

A few days ago I was having a shitty day. It could have been that I had two midterms in the morning, and wasn't sure how i was going to do on them but i don't know I wasn't very sure what was bothering me. I just tried to get over it and go on with the day. As I was walking to my car i saw a big white van crash into two cars in front of my car. It was the first time i had ever seen a crash happen. I wasn't sure what to do, i kinda froze as it happened in slow motion. I herd a girl behind me shout "what the hell!!" and then I reacted. As a got my phone to call the ambulance, i walked over to the crash. When out of no where a wave of people came out and began helping, they were directing traffic, helping the poor man who crashed, calling the ambulance. Everyone was doing something to help. Later I found out that the mans breaks gave out and he lost control of his vehicle. But i was surprised at how people weren't just staring or being stupid they stepped up to the plate and were actual human beings. That day didn't seem so bad after that I believe in humanity and one world connected by people who care. Heres to today, tomorrow and after that.