New Year

Sitting here on the eve of the new year feels great. Im older, wiser, bolder. I found love, I found I found myself.

stranger danger

It's strange how things fall into place.

Quote

To die will be an awfully big adventure.

Desensitized

I had never really dealt with death before, I mean the closest person who ever died to me was a nice girl who went to my middle school, I didn't know her to well. But all I knew was that I was suppose to feel sad about it. Someone told me recently "Death is something you have to accept regardless of the circumstances. But in general when people die and there is no emotional attachment then there is just a small amount of sympathy involved. But if there is a closer connection people pity themselves and mourn for themselves not really the person dying." Recently this has made a lot of sense, because in the past month I have seen about 5 people die, but no one around me has seemd to feel upset about it.

Hot on The Heels of Love

I love liking someone, there is a new freedom that comes with having someone to be with or lay with or kiss, whenever you want. Its nice, right now its not love but it sure is lust.

LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED

Little Joy

Just found and band with amazing music. I cant believe I had never heard of them before. The bands name 'Little Joy' it was formed by los hermanos. They are just great, bringing joy to this somewhat mundane Saturday morning. Wish they would play more music like this on the radio. Take a listen.

Confession #1

I love to think im carefree, but really I over think everything way to much. I over analyze then look at my options and only then try to make a dessication.

Im sick

Even though I have been sick for the past five day. Life seems to be moving smoothly, I love my life.

Being

I am reborn. I am no longer just human, a body walking through the crowd, no longer just a piece of space floating through existence, I am energy being. I am spiritual, loving, harmonious, happy, and whole. If I have ever not stood up for what i believe in I apologies. I create my future. I thank the universe, God, the higher power whatever, for showing me the path.

Lately i feel like im loosing myself. Every where i go everything is always the same boring mundane, no core no insight. No change in the youth, only damaged cries for help. I use to be so sure of who I was so confident in my reality. But who knows what is real anymore, is it whats in our hearts in our minds, or deep down in our souls? Stand up and scream, scream out loud, im calling out im calling for everyone. Im screaming for truth for comfort in knowing that someday ill find what Im looking for, hopefully we all will.