Don't be a jerk off

I don't know if its just me but when I walk into a waiting room or a crowded room I usually try to find a seat where I can be away from people or at least not quite next to them. So I found it odd today when I was waiting to get some blood work done, that an Asian man sat right next to me when there was plenty of empty seats all around me. He walked over and it seemed like he thought about it or hesitated at first and sat one seat over, but then he walked away and came back and sat right next to me and started reading his news paper. I thought to my self "thats weird" and so I ask you do you sit right next to people when there are empty seats all around ? A few minutes later I got called in to get my blood work done and the guy did to. The people sticking me with needles were all Asian, and as I soon found out all spoke the same language. They chated away laphed told stories and what not, well at least thats what I imagined. I couldn't help but to feel out of place. Out of the loop of things. So i tell you people out there don't sit next to people you don't know when there are empty seats all around. People need their personal space, and if your speak English why speak anything else here, it makes people think your talking about them. Don't be a jerk off. Thank you.

Wake Up Call

Wake up call. News flash for Orland, school just got hard! I guess I should have known it was coming the day that coasting through classes with minimal effort would come and ruin my life. I actually expected it on the first day of college back in august but nothing really changed, I passed my classes all first semester by going to class and not much else, a little studying here and there, but pretty much just staring at a teacher talk. Well my first month of second semester with my two new classes not so good. And I even made note cards, time to buckle down. At school some people blamed the teacher for not preparing us enough but its really all on us. I should have studied more and i will... next time. Some girl even cried it was a little sad and funny at the same time. Seeing as she is to old for that and also because the teacher made a joke about waiting to get out of class to cry after the final. The girl actually took it to heart. But this is just a bump in the road, and i needed it. I will learn from this experience and make a change. But know its the weekend, the first weekend in a while that I can actually enjoy. So lets go out, i need a fix.

An Eagle

These past weeks i have been more tired than usual. I have been taking naps which i never do and also iv been having the weirdest dreams. At first i thought i was getting old, and my sanity was leaving me, but its really just school. Every class keeps getting harder an harder. So its putting a damper on my life by getting me stressed out, I try to be cool and chill but im usually always worried about whats next, whats going to happen I think I need to just stop thinking. Get a clue and chill out. Part of my worrying is that i always wait until the last minute to do things. I could be brushing up on some Bio 130 but instead im writing a blog that nobody reads. See I don't get motivated to do things until the pressure is on. Im really no different than most under stimulated teenagers in America, we procrastinate. There is always something better to do and something to get pushed back to the next week, day, hour. I think if i liked what i was going to study i would look forward to learning but sadly my case is different, I am getting a career that i know could give me a good life but I want to be doing something else. I wish I was an eagle, well an eagle that could turn into a human after going wherever it wished. then i could be.

Last Thursday

A few days ago I was having a shitty day. It could have been that I had two midterms in the morning, and wasn't sure how i was going to do on them but i don't know I wasn't very sure what was bothering me. I just tried to get over it and go on with the day. As I was walking to my car i saw a big white van crash into two cars in front of my car. It was the first time i had ever seen a crash happen. I wasn't sure what to do, i kinda froze as it happened in slow motion. I herd a girl behind me shout "what the hell!!" and then I reacted. As a got my phone to call the ambulance, i walked over to the crash. When out of no where a wave of people came out and began helping, they were directing traffic, helping the poor man who crashed, calling the ambulance. Everyone was doing something to help. Later I found out that the mans breaks gave out and he lost control of his vehicle. But i was surprised at how people weren't just staring or being stupid they stepped up to the plate and were actual human beings. That day didn't seem so bad after that I believe in humanity and one world connected by people who care. Heres to today, tomorrow and after that.